Hi There,
My name is Pip and I'm starting a blog to express my deepest thoughts, dreams, desires and fears. This is a space where I can really expose myself and let everyone who's willing to listen to get a view into my mind.
Today I have been feeling rather vulnerable, I noticed how I wanted to close down around S (S is my ex boyfriend ) because I heard that he is interested in one of my friends . I noticed how I wanted to close down and shut him out of my heart when I heard this. My thoughts went to feeling really jealous and not being able to handle seeing him with one of my friends. Interestingly enough there was also a part of me that wants to welcome this as a way to work though some of my jealousy issues and desire to possess him.. Also noticing conflicting feelings of feeling like I'm still in love with him and yet being clear that I don't want him as a boyfriend.. Sometimes there is clarity around this and other days I'm in confussion around it.
anyway thats my blahhh for today.
I would welcome any feedback anyone has around this
blessings